There’s this tree on top of a hill beside a road in a small town, and I miss it.
I was there only once, with a bunch of friends, but at odd moments during that windy, cloudy afternoon of laughing and picnicking and mad scrambling to get up on the branches, I sometimes felt like the tree and I were alone.
It reminded me of a place where I was happy as a child. Another hilltop, another small town, with friends I haven’t seen in a while, and one I never will again. But it wasn’t just nostalgia that drew me to that place. It was the tree itself.
It was beautiful. Standing on the horizon, it kept its solitary vigil over the hill and the road and the village, and the sea beyond it, keeping steady through the wind and rain and burning sun. The world changed from dark to light and cold to warmth, yet still it stood. Constant, immovable, strong.
I want to be like that. I want to be steadfast and strong and constant, reaching higher while growing deeper as well. Sometimes, I feel like I’m too much at the mercy of the seasons, too small and fragile to do anything during the storms other than hide and hope I’m still here when it’s over. Too afraid. That’s not how I want to live. That’s not how I’m meant to live.
It’s been windy and cloudy this past couple of days, and my thoughts are on that hilltop. I miss that tree.
I wonder if trees miss people, too.