Captivating

Posted June 5, 2009 by evenstarwen
Categories: Christianity, Love, The Sound of Music

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(This song was composed for a Fine Arts 51 project. I wrote the lyrics, and my friend Kim Arvin Chan came up with the melody. It was inspired and is dedicated to the one who is taking my breath away with the greatest romance of my life. You are who You are – how can I be anything less than captivated? )


 

One by one

My masks fall away

And all that I am

Is exposed to your gaze

Your tenderness moves me

And I start to believe

That after all this time

I can somehow be healed


 

Captivating – that’s who you are

Can’t believe the way you’re winning my heart

Take me away, take me your way

I wanna be real; I wanna be free


 

You look at me

And I know for sure

I’ve never been loved

This completely before

How can I not surrender?

My walls are all down

You’ve changed me completely

My confusion is gone


 

Captivating – that’s who you are

Can’t believe the way you’re winning my heart

Take me away, take me your way

I wanna be real; I wanna be free

(repeat)


 

Deeper and deeper I fall into you

Until I’m safe in your arms


 

Captivating – that’s who you are

Can’t believe the way you’re winning my heart

Take me away, take me your way

I wanna be real; I wanna be free


 

Take me away, take me your way

I wanna be real; I wanna be free


 

Captivating – that’s who you are….

Longest Post-party Hangover Ever

Posted February 7, 2009 by evenstarwen
Categories: Lists, Swirl of Thoughts

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Candlelight, cadena de amor, and frangipani. A pink cake and colorful decorations. Phone calls and video messages from Palawan and Manila. And best of all, the love and laughter of friends.

It’s February already but I’m still not over the surprise. You guys just blew me away.  Let me just say thank you to these wonderful people once again:

TO MY FAMILY: For everything. Especially for muddling your way through the complexities of cyber technology so that you could send those videos to Dumaguete. I love you, technological cluelessness and all. I am so proud of you. You are the most amazing people in my universe.

SHANE, CANDY CANE, JUNIE, & JANINE: For making that night a perfect ten.  For knowing exactly what makes me happy. For getting in touch with the important people in my life and making them part of that night. For willingly going through the stress of keeping major secrets from someone you live with and talk to everyday. You shouldn’t have worried that I’d suspect anything – I was as clueless about your plans as my mom is about the internet. ;-) Thank you so much, anak, apo, and apo sa tuhod. You made me really happy. (Here I go again – I must have told you that a hundred times already. Sensya, major party hangover syndrome yan.)

ROO:   For producing that video presentation. Shane can tell you how many nights I played it before going to bed. You’ll get that academy award someday.

RAPSQUARED & KANGA: For literally running around trying to make everything all right. Nganong nagdagan-dagan man mo? Nasamad hinuon si Kanga. But on RapSquared’s part, ok ra because he got to stay in the “hotel,” otherwise known as the Silliman University Medical Center. ;-) But seriously, thank you, tall people.

KIM:   For making the day wonderful even before the party. For showing me the rainbows. For allowing me to add a new word into my vocabulary: “perfect-est”. For indulgently listening to me say over and over again that I’m really happy. And for a successful mission in keeping me distracted while the others were setting up the surprise. Best actor lage ka, Luwag…hehehe…

K.A. & MAAN: For doing the festive interior decoration. K.A., thanks so much for being there despite such a short acquaintance. Bunso, I delight in you. You both made the night really colorful.

PSALM PALAWAN: For your love that knows no limits. For your prayers and friendship. I miss you, mga palangga, now more than ever. Thank you for the messages, comments, and videos!

KUYA & CAZ: For not letting mere distance stop you from being with me that night. Wow, iba na talaga ang may superpowers. Caz, your secret identity is safe with me (and the approximately 30 other people who saw that video). Kuya ko, you will always be my personal superhero. I love you both. You really know how to make me feel special.

GARY V.: Of course I’ll marry you. Let’s do it next week.

SOLID ROCKERS: For being there. For the successful pretension that nothing out of the ordinary was afoot. Either I’m really dense, or you’re all very good actors. I prefer to believe the latter.

ORENZ: For the video. For wishing me a lifetime free of orcs. For the tour of your room. For the greeting from Kimura. For being who you are to me. Hanon le, Legolas. I am so glad I’m not the only Elf left in Middle Earth. I miss you.

WEN: For climbing that tree just to pick flowers for me. Bilib na jud ko nimo.

NIŇO: For being there. For the amazing pictures you took (I’m using one as my wallpaper for Trans). For being such a sweet friend. Thanks, Nin!

PATRICK: For that gift that took you so long to choose. For your presence that night. For being such a wonderful brother. I know that day in the Hibalag when we first met was one of the best parts of God’s plan for my life. You are such a blessing. Thanks, bro.

ANGEL & SOULMATE: For those unexpected phone calls that really took my breath away. It’s been so long. I miss you, girls. You still have the place in my heart that I gave to you, and you always will. There are so many stories waiting to be told, and I’m looking forward to the time when we can do so. I love you both so much. Forever.

PASTOR NITZ: For the most profound birthday message I have ever heard from a pastor. I will always remember to “go, grow, and glow.”

PASTOR ALONG: For planning that second surprise. It’s not your fault the weather did not cooperate. I really appreciate your thoughtfulness. Balik na lang ka next year diri sa Dumaguete. ;-)

NINUNO & NINUNA BERS: For making me feel like I was a guest on Boy & Kris. For being my kuya and ate ate here in Dumaguete. The Lord knew that I would need people like you even before we met.

PSALM BERS & BER FRIENDS: For being both the coolest and the hottest people I know not only in here in Dumaguete but everywhere. You guys are amazing. Thank you for being more than just friends, but my family. I love you, I love you, I love you – to infinity and beyond. You are so precious to me.

There are so many others who were not part of the surprise but nevertheless made my birthday special through their greetings. The Psychz. PSU and SU Psych people. PSALMists from everywhere. Friendster friends. Past and present churchmates. Thank you so much. You made me feel so loved. Hanon le.

TOP 10 SENTI SONGS

Posted January 21, 2009 by evenstarwen
Categories: Lists, The Sound of Music

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Sure, there are millions of songs about love already. Nevertheless, some writers manage to come up with lyrics that are fresh and genuine and real. Here are ten of the best I’ve ever heard.

* DECIPHERING ME (Brooke Fraser): Friend, it’s getting late, we should be going. We’ve sat here beneath these flickering neons for hours. While I am cracking their code, you are deciphering me – for I am a mystery; I am a locked room in a tall tower.

* LOVE IS WAITING (Brooke Fraser): I could write a million songs about the way you say my name; I could live a lifetime with you and then do it all again. And like I can’t force the sun to rise or hasten summer’s start, neither should I rush my way into your heart.

* THE THIEF (Brooke Fraser): You’re ruining me with secrets and gestures and looks, with sonnets from second-hand books, playing the chords in me nobody knew how to play. You sing me to sleep, talk down my walls, look through my windows as I wait. You could be the thief I give the key to.

* THESE DAYS (Chantal Kreviazuk): Make me a storybook and write me away from here. I need a different now – where we can wear each other for a while and I’ll lend you my tears if I could borrow your smile.

* THE FEAR YOU WON’T FALL (Joshua Radin): I know you’re scared that I’ll soon be over it – that’s part of it all. Part of the beauty of falling in love with you is the fear you won’t fall.

* SORRY TO A FRIEND (Edwin McCain): Staring at her face, I see a past that still haunts me. The road where we split up is paved with the things I didn’t say.

* COME AWAY WITH ME (Norah Jones): I want to walk with you on a cloudy day in fields where the yellow grass grows knee-high. So won’t you try to come?

* SONG FOR A DANCER (Stephen Speaks): She dances; her footsteps like raindrops patter across the stage. Second glances – she pirouettes then slowly fades away. Lost my chances – who holds the broom that will sweep her off her feet?

* PAPERWEIGHT (Joshua Radin and Schuyler Fisk): Every word you say I think I should write down, don’t wanna forget come daylight.

* SO ROMANTIC (Stacey Kent): It was so like you to choose such a moment: the sun setting over the square, a pavement café, the local children at play, the sound of an accordion somewhere. You suddenly said fate was pulling us apart, then you shrugged like there was nothing more to add. I suppose you considered that so romantic – well, I just considered it sad.

For the record, though, my wedding song is still, hands down, Gary V.’s I Will Be Here. ;-)

 

Weird Coconut Tree

Posted January 6, 2009 by evenstarwen
Categories: Etcetera

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This tree can be found beside the southbound highway (near the zigzag) of Puerto Princesa City in Palawan, Philippines. I have no idea how it got to be this way. Can anyone solve this mystery?

You’ve won my heart

Posted October 31, 2008 by evenstarwen
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I’m here with you at last. I’m here, just standing still and letting you love me. And as the wind flows over the grass on the mountains and the hair on my shoulders, I hear you whisper:  “I know you.” And for once, it doesn’t terrify me to be known. Instead, there’s a surge of relief and intense joy, and though I am wet, muddy, and cold, I feel fresh, free, and alive. The soft rain on my skin feels like an embrace so tender it melts me, and it seems like the most romantic thing in the world to be up here on the hills, on this morning of wind and clouds, discovering how much you delight in me. I want to shout and to soar, to tell you that you are amazing and beautiful and glorious, and that you have captured my heart at last. The pursuit is over – I’m done with running away. I am yours.